Anticipation Of Something Great, or 10 Direction Points On The Autism Journey

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Living Each Day With Anticipation of Something Great

Robin’s egg blue.  Wild flowers.  Green springing up and out everywhere, and the very air breathes anticipation of good things to come.

Spring.

Time of renewal.  The cold winter is over, and the sun is shining.  The world is changing, adorning itself with sparkly fresh newness.  There is anticipation in the singing of the birds.

Hang. On. To. That.

Feel the newness.  Absorb the fresh beauty.  Take it in, and squeeze it tight.  Transform it into emotion that awakens happiness and joie de vivre in a weary heart, because, the reality?

The reality for someone on the autism spectrum is that life goes on with the same diagnosis day after day, and with the same feelings of anxiety and overwhelm.

The reality for living with someone on the autism spectrum is not to anticipate a lot of change, or at least, any quick change.  Celebrate the good times, and ease through the bad times.

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Which makes me think of things I have learned to make easing so much easier.  When I read this post I began to feel that perhaps we are on the right track. The writer of this blog, Anna, reveals first hand experience that often corroborates what I’ve been thinking, and her input gives me confidence that we are heading north in this journey that is autism.

Anticipation Points for The Journey

  1. A hard thing with autism is eye contact.  Never, ever force eye contact.  There are so many people who just can’t understand this, and even her doctor tells her to practice eye contact as much as possible. He is supposed to understand.  He is supposed to be helping her understand why she can do eye contact sometimes, but that it’s okay not to force it.  It is so much better to keep the eyes in a safe place, and make a quick but respectful exit, if necessary.  In all the doctors we have seen, not one has ever had sympathy for how she feels.  They all want to tell her how she should feel, and how she should try to feel.  If you want medical opinions on this aspect, read this.  For a more people-friendly explanation, this might help more.
  2. Emotions and feelings are so hard to interpret.  Don’t take everything that is said the way it sounds, and certainly don’t take anything that is said personal.  It may be meant personal, and hurtful things often come from a person who lives with anxiety as a constant, but do not take it personal.  Always give room for the emotion and impulse of a moment that will change.
  3. Listen with your heart, and not just your ears.  Be cool and analytical in conversation, and never return fire with fire.  Wait until the storm is over to discover what was really going on, or at least, ask questions that may help you understand.  It very likely has nothing to do with what was being said, or what you thought was going on.  It is probably a reaction to something she is dealing with that she hasn’t yet figured out how to talk about, or hasn’t had the time to work through.  This poem describes perfectly some of the reasons reactions are unexpected (Written by Anonymously Autistic):

    Squinting in the light

    Ticking Clocks

    The world is so bright

    Everything hums

    Shiny daylight fixtures

    Killing me slowly

    Eyes and brain aching

    Stomach turns

    I’m not faking

    Sounds you can’t hear

    Driving me crazy

    Can’t tune it out

    Can’t make it stop

    I close my eyes and rock

    Counting to ten

    Breathing deeply

    Desperately grasping

    Trying to hold it in

    Looking for a place to hide

    The world is spinning

    I can’t escape

    Hot tears burst

    My body burns

    Nobody can help me

    Let me be

    Do not touch me

    I need to breathe

    Once started

    This pain must run its course

    Before I sleep

  4. Try not to put her on the spot, or require answers to questions quickly.  Be patient.  Wait for the right time.  Don’t push for fast promises or decisions.  Plant the seed, then wait for it to grow.  Tomorrow or next week the topic may come up again, and a satisfactory conclusion made.
  5. This next one is hard to describe.  Your behavior is what matters, and your actions, facial expression and body language are what counts.  She cannot sense what is in your heart, because she can’t read facetiousness or sarcasm.  She takes things at face value, so it is important to squash any emotions you feel about something else before you address her.  Explain carefully that what you look like and how you feel right now does not have anything to do with her.  I can’t stress this enough.  She will not know that your emotions and reactions are not meant towards her, and even after many times of explaining to her, her head will get it, but her heart won’t.  So be careful, and always be kind.  Even when she can’t return that kindness.anticipation great life with autism
  6. Don’t force her to have a social life, because chances are she feels its absence very keenly.  Her neurotypical peers are doing many things she isn’t, and if she feels forced into social life, she is headed for hurt.  She will think she is doing what the others are doing, but she will be taken advantage of and then ignored.  She will be left to agonize, and wonder what she did wrong.  Encourage her to have one or two friends, and not necessarily from her peer group.  Someone younger or older may fit the friendship ticket better than a peer, who can only talk about doing things she wishes she could do successfully.
  7. Approve, praise, and under-gird fragile emotions.  Make a list of ways to make her life better, and read it often.  Remind yourself of what works, and things you’ve discovered that don’t work.
  8. If you can’t stay on top of this pinnacle (and you won’t) take a break to refresh, before you engage in communication.  It is too easy to break down what took time to build up, so do the best thing for both of you.  Take breaks, because you have to stay on top of it.  No whining allowed.
  9. Encourage volunteering, if she isn’t successfully holding a job.  Kim spends hours helping Miss Anita, the equine-therapist where she learned to ride.  Kim doesn’t like to ride that much, but she loves helping lead and saddle the horses for the young riders, leaving Miss Anita to instruct.
  10. When her comparison virus sets in, and volunteering isn’t enough, encourage her to find a job.  Searching for a job and researching the options will help cure the virus, because she will probably decide that volunteering does work so much better.  Don’t demand she have a job, if you know it will set her up for overwhelm and eventual fail.  Do encourage her, however, to slowly work towards that goal.  Assure her that when the time is right, she will find the job of her dreams.

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And This Is The Great Thing

You may be asking what is great in this scenario, but believe me, there are good things to anticipate.

You may feel that you are lowering the bar compared to your other children, but you aren’t.  They are not the same people, and each person deserves to have their own bar.  Everyone has a level of accomplishment, whether it’s the Peter Principle, or the Who Moved My Cheese principle.  Never force anyone beyond their comfort level.

I realize having said this, that there are times when one should move up to a new zone.  The times this applies is when the capability is there, and not merely the desire.

So the Great Thing is finding joy in your comfort zone, without anticipating more than today.

Find YOUR Great Thing Today, because Every Day has a Great Thing.

 

What are the Great Things you anticipate in your days?  Are you struggling with something that makes it difficult to discover Great?  Please share your secret, and tell us what you have discovered for your journey.